Happy Independence Day! August 31, 2009
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Lotsa healthy and yummy food served.
Mindless loud chatter among the girls.
Bursting into fits of laughter in between conversations.
Mad sarcastic comments thrown at each other.
Ugly drawing pictionary session.
Yelling answers for taboo and laugh a lot more.
Walked up 3 flights of stairs just to sieve through dvd collections.
Being high the whole time without alcohol.
Lame joke that made me laugh till everyone stares.
‘Twas a good good night.
*
Now i have enough dvd supplies to keep me focused for a while. I have decided to ditch gym tomorrow despite having eaten too much home cooked food tonight and watch dvds instead. I think i’m gonna sacrifice sleep just to watch GA too.
All is well now.
After all, i am easily contented with little things.
No complains. 
Escape. August 29, 2009
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How hard is it really, to plaster a smile on your face and to fake a laughter so loud that the world thinks you are too bubbly for your own good?
You want an answer? Here.
Its not that hard, really. I think i managed quite well.
In fact, its kinda scary when i manage to fool myself into believing that i’m fine. Its like i can’t differentiate whats real or not anymore. Of course it hurts really bad when reality hits. Like duh! It only takes a sentence from a text for that tear to roll down your cheek that you realise, hey, life isn’t always a bed of roses!
Walking away 2 years back was so much easier; at least i’ve got a reason to. Now, the thought of taking 1 step back feels like my heart is shredded into pieces.
But whatever it is, it happens for a reason. And for whatever reason that is, i need to be strong.
Rich and Christy. August 25, 2009
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4 years ain’t that long.
Maybe, just maybe.
Me, changed? August 25, 2009
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I was on msn with this good friend of mine and guess what he said?
Disappointed. August 22, 2009
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In me.
For opening up to vulnerabilities;
For trusting too easily.
Now, with His strength, i think i can manage to pick up those little pieces of my heart instead of screwing myself over.
Lesson learned.
A screw went loose up there. August 20, 2009
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I don’t know whats with me these days. For one minute i am on cloud 9 and next thing you know, i get soooo furious with petty little things.
Right now, i’m angry cause my DVD is not working.
I feel like whacking something.
I think i’m going crazy.
Losing grip. August 19, 2009
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Its not you, its me.
The feeling of letting go, the intention to surrender creeps back to me whenever i’m at my lowest. Times like these i feel like i’m being pushed around, not knowing how to stand my ground. I fought back hard each and everytime to see a glimmer of hope, and then poof! Here we go again. The constant feeling of being not good enough, being too out there, having no sense of self cotrol is drowning me. I’m starting to question myself. Who am i? What am i gonna be? And why am i being so difficult?
Of course, the only possible thing remaining the same is probably my incoherence writing. Thank you for wasting 5minutes of your precious time.
Free like a bird! August 11, 2009
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For 3 weeks starting today which half my day is already gone! LOL.
I’ve already planned a list of thing to do, hopefully this time, things will turned out as planned.
Last night was YinQi’s farewell and i somewhat got smashed really bad. No really, ’twas the i-couldn’t-climb-out-of -bed-when-i-woke-up bad. And the headache that follows.. Whoaaa, not exactly the best feeling. I really didn’t expect that since i was sober enough to drive myself home.
Gah, weird.
At least now my headache is not that bad anymore.
I’m going off to gym. *excited* I’ve been MIA for 2 weeks because of that stupid finals. Wheeee, RPM and BodyPump! I come for you now. 
On a side note, grats Jin. 
